Yesterday I met with friends for coffee and although some partook of the house's delicacies, I did not. I was feeling good. I was fitting into formerly tight jeans and now they were loose- not a little loose, r.e.a.l.l.y. loose!!!! and I was wearing a formerly snug sweater that I loved but never loved how tightly it hugged my torso. P.S. It is still not "loose" aka big, but probably fits the way the designer intended.
So yeah, I was feeling pretty good about myself.
But then the universe took a pot shot.
My friend sitting across from me took a photo of the now empty coffee cups and yummies and unfortunately a not so flattering muffin top developed into that photo.....MY MUFFIN TOP!!!!
And the stinkin' thinkin' swirled around in my head. Egads, that is a horrible picture of me. Oh no, everyone is looking at that photo. These thoughts would not stop. All those negative body image thoughts kept flooding my head. I immediately lost all thoughts of friendship and fun and was focused on my roll sitting there for all the world to see.
UrrrrKKKKKKK.... step on the brakes, Strawberry! You think this is a revelation for everyone? You think your table mates have not witnessed before that large muffin sitting off the table? Do they care? Obviously not, you keep getting asked back for coffee with the girls.
I am making great strides with the losing weight part. I am making better eating selections than I have before. Kaaaaaa, that conniving scale is finally smiling up at me. So my next action plan is to love my body....bumps, rolls, cellulite, and varicose veins and all.
Warning: Not a pretty sight, but heck, the coffee was delicious and the friends are priceless. So yeah, I'm embracing this picture for what it is....it isn't about the muffin top in the photo; it's about friendships, and for me....loving me rolly, polly and all.
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| Body Image Photo...Take 1....it's a keeper |
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