Going in a different direction here

I'm a mess.  I know it.  You know it.  I've debated whether I'm ADD because I just have such a hard time concentrating on one thing before something else pops in my mind and before I know it, I've forgotten all about the first "said" thing.  I've always chalked it up to being a fun, spontaneous girl (which I am!) but it makes for a hard time completing something.  like my weight    or   the   house   or the backyard   or finishing a project for youth    or .....well, you get my drift.

This blog was set up to chronicle my weight loss (ahem) journey.  It didn't work so well in the weight loss, but it has given me a journal of the struggle.  It is ongoing, folks.  You can't turn your attention to something else and totally forget about the healthy lifestyle or the weight loss or the diet (whatever you want to call it).  It starts with an attitude change that says "I will NOT put that poison in my body."

Just recently I gave up diet cokes.  Yes, I know you have heard this before and I have succeeded before, but there was always a little voice in the back of my head saying-- but you are still young and can give it up in another year or two and still be okay--- Did you hear her?  Moana was sabotaging my success.  The voice of "reason" was a whiny little 2 year old thinking only of her needs at that moment...not the grown-up Strawberry taking charge and stopping the madness.

I don't remember what day I stopped.  It wasn't a planned event.  Just like Forest Gump, I just started (not running...oh hell no, not running!).  So Day One, whenever that was, I just said "no."  It was a struggle...believe me.  I wanted to run out and get one and say "okay, just this one."  But I fought it and focused on something else.  Day 2 I thought "just one."  But then I remembered I hadn't had one the day before and focused on something else.  Day 3 and so on....and well, here I am on Day Whatever and Diet Coke Free.  One of those days Hubby and I went out for breakfast.  My stomach was a little upset and I wanted something bubbly.  I asked for a Sprite Zero.  "Don't have Sprite Zero, just Diet Coke" was the reply.  Hmmmmm  I didn't know how many days I had been DC Free so I didn't want to break the streak.  I ordered water instead, ate a bland breakfast, and was fine.  There will always be challenges and struggles.  Lord, we wouldn't be alive now, would we?  But along this journey I want to keep it real.  Losing weight will be a lifelong thing for me now because I didn't change my habits when I was younger to make them HABITS now.  grrrrrr

I remember attending a Weight Watchers meeting years (and years) ago.  There was a cartoon of two little ladies viewing their friend at a wake.  One said to other, "Yes and to think, she was only 5 pounds away from goal."  I do not want to be that person in the coffin and people "tsk tsk"-ing about my weight journey.

I am making changes.  I have to continue blogging about my weight....I'm sorry.  I know it is boring and you'll think "Sheesh! Doesn't she have anything else to talk about?"  Glad you asked.  Yes I do.  I have one more struggle to chronicle and that is my horrible house cleaning skills!  LOL

So in addition to weight loss, you get to follow my house cleaning woes.

This cracks me up every time CeCe sends it to me!!!!  LOL

 It is October...the month of scary things.  Don't let this post spook you...as always I hope my struggles will be humorous and helpful.  Life is too short to let it get me down.  I would much rather laugh with you along this journey.

Peace...out, Grainiacs.  Love y'all.