Off Track but moving towards Reality-ville

Grainiacs, again I confess, I've gotten off track.  It is easy to do for this strawberry.  I try to go against my grain, but my grain is too ingrained!!  I've found myself eating too much ice cream.  I've thought I'll just have this one more bowl and then tomorrow will be the day.  Oh how many times have I duped myself into thinking tomorrow will be the day?  I recall my mantra to "get back on that horse" as soon as I've fallen off, but again, my grain has gotten in the way.

Here's my question: can a person really go against their grain... in the long run?  I seemed to have an easy time last year around August.  It lasted until October and then my long ingrained grain set back in.

I am an unashamed optimist so I say Yes you can go against your grain.  We have to believe that we can change, but it takes work.  In some weight loss or self-help programs they ask participants to "imagine" yourself skinny or in control or whatever self-help state you need to see yourself.  So what if you CAN imagine yourself skinny or in control or whatever?  As a matter of fact, you are living in such a fantasy world that you already imagine yourself that way!  What then?  Then you have your picture taken and boom....what a shock to your system.  You think, WAIT....who is that fat/ out of control/ or whatever person?  Or worse-- you refuse to have your picture taken and never know what you really look like!

So there has to be another tool to use to help you achieve your perfect state, right?  The imagining tool isn't working.  What's next?  Maybe plastering your house with the reality photos you've tried to hide or cut (thanks to scrapbooking, we now have permission to cut photos!).  Possibly a dose of reality scrapbooking is in order.  Maybe decorate your house with wall to wall mirrors, but don't buy those circus mirrors that make you look long and lean.  If you have to purchase non-reality mirrors, buy the ones that make you look short and dumpy.

I don't have the answers, Grainiacs.  For some, losing weight is easy as deciding you will cut out sugar or sweets.  For some of us, it is a chore.  It zaps our energy.  It just goes against our grain.  For those who are fighting the weight game, all I can say is I'm with ya, sister.  I feel your pain.  Let's not give up, though.    Today IS the day.

One thing I'm trying not to do is play the blame game.  Yes, I moved.  Yes, there are butt-loads of restaurants and new places to explore.  Yes, I feel like exploring all of the tastes and sights here in my new Reality-ville.  But, I will not blame my circumstances--it was me....all me.

So again I say....Today is most definitely The Day.

P.S. Here is my reality photo.  I will paste it all over my casita.