Thursday, May 24, 2012

Hello, It's Me!

It's been a while; I know.  Every morning I had every good intention of blogging but sleep got in the way.  Garbage Gut has been waking me up like clockwork an hour before I want to get up.  (I've got to find a muzzle....pfffff...I have one.  His face is too small and he barely has a nose for the muzzle to fit on.)  I guess I better start going to bed earlier so I can get up earlier so when Sir Alarm Clock beeps...er, barks I don't crawl back to bed.  That's the problem: my grain is to go back to bed instead of getting up.  My grain is to go back to eating like I did back before I started losing weight.  My grain is to take the easy non-thinking way out.  No wonder I'm tired and grumpy and frumpy and fat!  My inner child (have I named her yet?) whines when she is bored or tired.  And that, Dear Grainiacs, is why I have a weight problem (and a clutter problem, but that's for a different day!).

Last week I went and weighed at my WW meeting and although I wasn't shocked by the gain, I was disappointed in myself.  I should be farther along on this journey.  Instead I've lost almost 20 pounds and have remained there for several months...more than several...almost SIX  MONTHS!!!!!  Well, that has got to change.  I have got to change.  I am going to change!!!  How's that for a self pep-talk?

If you attend those weekly meetings then you'll know what I'm talking about it.  If not, please bare with me.  Last week was our new leader's meeting.  She did a fantastic job, but I'm not doing this for the leader...or Hubby; I'm doing it for me.  So I will not use the excuse of "I didn't like the leader so I'm not going back."  I'm not hurting her/him; I'm hurting myself.  Again, I am not losing weight for that leader so they are a tool (okay, THAT doesn't sound right but I've got to publish this so I can eat my healthy breakfast and get to work!) to help me.  If I don't like her/him, I'll forgive them for not being motivating or helpful and instead glean helpful info from the group.  Last week I also stayed for the "new member" part...the part where they tell you about the program and how it works and yada yada (thank you Jerry Seinfeld for a great word!).  They also give out a nifty little booklet.  As Providence would have it, the topic this past week was on "spaces."  You know, clearing out the junk food and adding in the good healthy foods.  "You can't eat it if you don't have it"-- great philosophy and so true.  How can I eat that tub of ice cream if it isn't in my house and I'm in my jammies and I'm just bored and want something to entertain me-- like a big bowl of ice cream!!!  NO;  out, out damn thought.  You are just bored. Oh wait, silly me, I don't have ice cream in the freezer...no problem.  How about frozen grapes instead?  Ah, yes, that hit the spot!  Ha ha ha, okay, don't start yelling obscenities at me-- I know the two are like night and day, but think about it.  I'm bored.  I really don't want to eat but I've got a hankering for something cold and frozen (I'm leaving out the "creamy")...cold and frozen....cold and frozen.  I have frozen fruit in my freezer.....why not?  It's cold and frozen and sweet.  Go for it.  Pretty soon my ice cream craving has vanished and my new craving for frozen fruit has taken over....PLUS it is 0 points...unless I eat the whole fruit bar in the freezer....then I WILL need to count the points.

How about you?  How have you done this past week....weeks...month?  Why not start afresh with me?  I have not-so-fresh frozen strawberries in the freezer!!!!

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